I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in an extended while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing so for the wrong reason; as an easy way to avoid my problems. a course in miracles The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to generally share wasn’t yet clear at that time; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not think of something that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.
There are other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.